To dance beneath it with you

Because poetry melts my soul and has forever stolen my heart. It was the only healthy outlet through my teenage years full of hiding behind a smile while I slowly died inside. Notebooks upon notebooks filled with my deepest darkest thoughts, forever hidden away.

I've always felt as if I have to be everyone's ray of sunshine, even if I slip into another emotional coma when life becomes too heavy (still working on this). Always certain that I would be looked at differently if the world really knew me, and my humanly roller coaster of thoughts, emotions, or lack of. Then I realized I am but one voice among a world of others that may be feeling the same way. So I let down my wall, I opened up and began blogging.. leaving myself completely naked to the world and their opinions. It may seem like public suicide to some.. the world can be so brutal, how can I be so open??

My answer is this. I would be on this journey if you were here with me or not. I would still cry on the bathroom floor, or laugh because I can't shake the mustard, or become irritated because I can't get my own shirt off. None of that would change. But the person reading this, that can laugh because they've been there, or can wipe away tears because for the first time they don't feel alone, or maybe my words help them understand how someone they know may be feeling. To be reminded that life is full of storms, and while some may last longer than others, the clouds will always part and the sun will shine again.

Thank you to those that have been there for me through this crazy thing called life. I'm so greatful to you. Thank you to those that were there for the sunshine, but couldn't take the rain. Thank you to those that stayed for a few showers but couldn't stand outside while it poured. And thank you from the bottom of my soul to those that have ridden through the storms by my side, holding me up when my world flooded and I couldn't float alone.

I am and will forever be your Kritty-loo. I'm ever evolving as quick as the very earth we stand upon. This is my story. The words are written whether you are here to read them or not. I will feel darkness and pain, beauty and light no matter if you are there to see it or not. If you've stood there through my light, and remained through the darkness..even if you were afraid too, Thank you. The sun always shines again and I can't wait to dance beneath it with you.